Who I am and the Characters I Write

Two days of blogging! I deserve a medal. 😉6655693

I have a secret to share. It may shock, anger, even appall you. Are you ready?

Elemental is NOT a Paranormal Romance. Neither is Almost Night. Or any other book I’ve written. I’ll give you a moment to recover.

You might have guessed, but this is my very sarcastic way of finally opening up about who I am. I like sarcasm. It helps to lighten the mood. But I started this with my first blog post and I need to continue it.

Here are some things you don’t know about me:

I’ve been bullied

isolated

stalked

cheated on

suffered from depression-induced eating disorders that I had to claw my way out of by myself because I was too afraid to tell anyone

abused

broken

The only reason I’m still standing is because God is holding me together.

And I write broken characters.

I don’t write strong, female protagonists because I’M not a strong, female protagonist. I’m alive. And that’s a different kind of strength. It’s the strength that clings to loved ones, to God, because it can’t do anything else. It wakes up in the middle of the night wanting to scream from the weight crushing it down. But it’s alive. Everyday, it’s a strength that endures.

Ella is broken.

Lilly is broken.

In different ways.

But they endure. They stay alive through it all.

They’re not perfect, just like I’m not perfect. And they struggle through it all with the knowledge that they’re the most dangerous things in the universe…to themselves and to others. Just like me.

Sure it’s sci-fi for Ella and fantasy for Lilly, but they’re just like me. They’re just like the teenage girl I was and the teenage girls I know are going through the same things today that I went through years ago. I needed characters like Ella and Lilly when I was younger. And I know there are girls who need them today.

Because they endure, and we all need to know that getting through tomorrow is possible.

Music for the day:

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